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wish for something to take it all away.
Im hoping I will be able to bowl when that day comes :/
Typical day in school on the whole. But oddly enough though, I felt extra lethargic the whole day. So I fell asleep in chemlab, chem lecture and well, I would have fallen asleep in econs too if not for the chemistry A1 practical I had to finish. But then when you look back at my day, it doesnt turn out quite as odd as I first put it out to be, since I fall asleep in lessons most of the time anyway. Hmmm.
Physics with mrlow enlightened me quite abit. No, not about physics. I did understand E-field more now though, but thats not what I meant. He started the lesson off with a speech/lecture/whatever, and some points he mentioned did make me think "what in the world have I been doing up till now?"
We want so many things. We have unlimited wants, in fact. But do we want them enough? Am I working hard enough to get what I want? When we long for something in life, we would do something about it, wouldnt we? But when we dont put in enough effort, when we dont work hard enough, does that mean we dont want it bad enough? Im not sure, since I know deep down that I want some things bad enough. But sometimes I question my determination, for I have always thought myself to be someone who would never give up as easily as most. As long as I genuinely want something or to get something done, I will keep going. mrlow made me realise, that I mistook faith for determination. I have no qualms about waiting, and believing that something will happen, without actually doing much to get things done. Do I want that A at Alevels bad enough? Yes. As bad as the other 85% A students? Yes. Am I doing enough to get that A? Sadly, no.
Its been my greatest downfall. Its like how you care about people around you, but dont do the right things to show them that you do. How are they to believe, or to actually KNOW, that you do care? It just doesnt matter how much we can try and hope that they can somehow feel it, because they simply cant.
If tomorrow never comes, would she know how much I loved her?
She probably wouldnt.
Because I never got to showing her that I did.
Until its too late and nothing matters anymore now.
I simply have got to get things together, and work doubly hard. I want to bowl well in A divs. I want to get my A's. So do whats needed to get them.
This I must do.
Why cant we go back to the days when we actually had fun together.
At least back to when we were friends,
and actually talked.
Friends right up till the day I felt something special.
Then it all went downhill.
Why do we hurt the ones we love most?