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November 2008
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November 2009
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maybe we are never meant to be
we're like the 2 ends that never meet.
i know you've been trying, trying to make things happen, and i never seem to be able to do whats best. and its at times like this when i make you feel like i dont care. if i were you, i would be disappointed too.
but i do. its just how i havent been myself around you. its like facing the math paper at EOYs when my mind goes blank. but in a good way this time round, even though the results still suck and i feel like a total jerk.
even if things havent turned out the way we want them to, isnt it only right to follow your heart in situations like these? if you still find it in you, why walk away? if you still believe, believe in us that we'll find a way.
when you finally think that theres nothing left in you to make you want to stay, always remember to keep that smile on your face. that way it wont hurt me as much than to see you leave feeling down. because even after you leave, this passion will still be burning in me, as it had right from the start. and it wont stop burning anytime soon.
love yourself if you can ever love me.
ill do whatever it takes;
cause i believe in you, in us.
Training just got so much more fun. The juniors are already coming in, and showing much interest in joining the team. Without a doubt, they're much better than me when I first joined last year. A divs got hope le (: But i still need to get so much more accurate by the time its May. It would just plain suck if I fail the team again.
cogito ergo sum. i think, therefore i can.
i can, therefore i will.
I NEED TO GET STARTED ON REVISION!
i havent spent time going through most of the stuff taught last year, most of the stuff that i forgot. its 7 weeks to blocks(i think) and im still nowhere close to a pass in math. chem physics econs arent half as bad, but i really shouldnt procrastinate any longer, though theres comfort in the knowledge that im not behind in homework. yet. Ill start with chem this week since i still dont understand ionic equilibria. math will be next, since im still struggling with Chapter 1: Indices. physics and econs arent too bad yet, so theyll come last.
Note to self: stop mugging bowling. start mugging mathhh. DO NG TONG CHEONG PROUD!
you make me lose myself, whenever i look into your eyes. and i come out of it, feeling like a total jerk. but i still hope itll get better, cause i really should have done better in any case.
why do i keep running from the truth.
all i ever think about is you;
after all this time
P.S i hit a 205 with my new MaxXxZone. Thumb stucked, inconsistent release, not aiming, and this ball can still get me a 205. What more can I say about its quality in pin carry.
So I've actually been doing work alot more now this year. Way more than I had in term 1 last year, and yes im proud of myself. Abstaining totally from LAN is my top priority right now and I think its working (:You tend to get bored during the holidays and even on school days, when you dont dota nor do work. So i spend a little of my time over at failblog.org, the place for retarded videos and pictures of epic failurezzz. Here are some of the better ones:
I know this year will be one of many changes, especially when im starting to improve in Maths. GOGO PnC GOGO. For one, im no longer sleeping in class(as much), and instead im actually taking stuff in for a change. Lessons might not be that bad afterall! What with robertwilks and mrlow as our new gp and physics teachers, its gonna be much busier than last year, cause we have no choice but to finish our hw. or risk getting assraped by Drow Ranger Wilks. ahwell, at least itll be fun, since im starting to love s62 even more now...somehow.
the brain tells me to leave. the heart tells me i still cant get over.
cause it sucks having to let you slip away knowing that i cant even do anything to make it happen, knowing that i dont want to because you'll be better off and happier without me. and ultimately knowing that simply because i cant commit, its better this way so we wont end up regretting the choices we make.
its funny how this feeling hasnt change a single bit all this time(its been toooo long), and how i dont even know you all that well. but i guess it happens, and now im in too deep, i cant get out. now ive run out of reasons as to why this feeling cant fade away. its a shame how we're worlds apart, and its killing me to see us drift apart, no matter how glad i will be to know that you'll be happier this way. so please. stay happy for my sake. (:
'But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will I ever see
You smiling back at me
How will I know?
If I let you go..'
bahh i've really been an idiot. but now that ive got all that off my chest, life seems all peachy once again, cause it is. it doesnt matter if you even somehow read this, not that its better if you do, but one cant possibly keep too much depressing stuff to himself and not explode. ill get started on physics tutorial and finishing up chem tut as well.
LIFES GOOD. BELIEVE IN IT.
fun picts
Its just 3 days before the start of the new school term, 3 days before I decide whether or not to abstain from LAN until after A levels, 3 days before seeing Liew again.
And to commemorate this joyous occasion, I've got several pictures I found lurking around my folder which I find particularly amusing.
Indulge.
Loved the last one. No idea why. :D
Threw a 210 today at SAFRA yishun with melvin, which made my day. We planned to meet at 2, and our beloved dayan called to say he couldnt make it at 1.57. ): Not exactly what I expected after travelling for an hour and was 1 stop away from yishun mrt. Not that I blame him (more like not that I can, or risk expulsion) but I was really hoping for more people today. ohwell.
i think watching walter ray williams jr bowl makes me improve.
And i'm really aiming to achieve quite a number of things by the end of 2009. I classify them under goals, more than newyear resolutions, since my newyear resolutions for the past 3 years have failed - PASS MATH PLEASEEE. never happened. zzz
1-Do well in A divs with at least a 1000pinfall for 6 games.
2-Abstain from LAN. or dota for that matter. i seriously doubt the latter will happen..SO, i shall stick with the first.
3-Do well in A levels. preferably in math as well or im rather screwed when it comes to selecting unis. IF i ever reach that stage that is.
i havent done anything to make it easier for us, so now let me make things right;