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November 2008
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November 2009
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we made life the way it is
its weird how things go wrong all at the same time. but i will not give up, cause i can make things right.
Trainings dont feel right nowadays. it just doesnt. Somehow i cant seem to perform during trainings, and nobody seems to know whats going on with me. Im happy with my bowling and all, but theres this air around the training venue/team that is frankly, rather suffocating. Maybe i just have to get over it, since noone else has this issue. Well, not that i know of. On good days, i average 170s-180s when bowling with my parents, and even 140-50s on bad days. Training averages range from 130-145. While it might have been much worse, and people might say that its really a decent average to be getting, i know that most of it has to be attributed to luck. I dont deserve even a 130 if i cant repeat shots, and if the feel of the shot is wrong. pfft. So much for being a vice-captain. There are so many others who deserve this position more than me. Guess i got lucky. :/
After a great start to the year, I realised ive been losing much needed steam in my studies. What a time for this to happen, not that it should in any case. On the bright side, i havent fallen behind in terms of my own study plan for the blocks. It could be because I set aside a whole week for physics revision, and i still have half a week left. You cant possibly fall behind schedules that are so lax, can you?
And its not helping that i havent been making things happen like ive been saying. i know. I will find out how to go about it. someday, somehow. So somehow, its been affecting me. It shouldnt. If only I hadnt made things as complicated as they are right now. sighh.
i know this feeling's right, when it hurts more to know ive hurt you, than to know you might not feel the same way about me.
though we drifted apart in distance, i still think of you as being right here. and although we have many new friends, it is our friendship that means the most to me.
lol. i feel dumb bitching about the things i messed up in life. Life doesnt suck, we made it that way. I made it that way. But, its not too late, yet. Do everything wrong (in training), and get everything right.
yes indeed, ill need to get EVERYTHING right.
go for it dc.